couple of words [109]

He: I told you the movie would end this way...

She: Ohh you're so boring! Mister Specialist, pardon me for my lack of imagination!

He: That hurts more than the punch the guy suffered.

She: My sentimental cinephile! Come here and give me a kiss.

He: That's better.
People really don't like to watch the end credits right?

She: Couples only apparently.

He: But that's not the same.

She: Why not?

He: Because... Couples stay longer to be together.

She: And watch the credits.

He: No, to kiss and stuff.

She: Stuff?
Are you planning on fumble me mister?

He: Nope!
Not anymore at least...

She: You dog!

He: Ouch!
Now that really hurt as the punch the guy suffered.

She: That was the intention.
After all you are the protagonist in my life's movie.

He: See, that's sweet.

She: You're welcome.

He: It's because things like that I wanted to fumble you.
Just a little, you know. When everything was dark here and all.

She: No more fumble talks! I'm not a football.
Besides the cleaning people must be hating us for not leave.

He: I won't leave, there are still credits on the scr...
Yeah. Not anymore.

She: See? Good for you there was no fumbling here.

He: You'll see later...

couple of words [108]

She: Really? What was it?

He: I'll tell if you promise not to laugh.

She: Of course I'm gonna laugh! Hahah I am already. Tell me!

He: You boring...
I... Wanted to dance with you.

She: Mmm you in the mood to dance. This is a special day.

He: And you would sing your own version over the song.

She: Yeah I would.

He: And I would laugh at you getting drunk with some wine.

She: And I would spill on you a little for laughing at me.

He: As long as you don't spill over our brand new carpet...

She: You don't tempt me mister.
In fact... Let's go upstairs cause now you owe me a dance!

He: Our downstairs neighbours are an old couple right?

She: I guess so, why?

He: We better dance barefoot then...

She: What, you expected me to dance in a heel? No sir!
Plus... I don't think they will hate us.

He: They won't hate you, cause you're beautiful and adorable. I'm a hairy caveman.

She: Hahahah almost a werewolf!
You silly, they probably are a cute couple for being together so long...

He: So we should give them a cake or something right?

She: I'll buy flowers tomorrow.
Now get up, I want to hear your version for the song!

He: And I want to see you getting drunk!

She: Ohh you're well disposed now aren't you mister?

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She: Now everything's on the right place I want to go out and celebrate!

He: Celebrate? I'm so tired that the only thing I wanna celebrate tonight is our mattress. Even on the floor.

She: Oh come on we must leave and have a drink. It's our first night officially together.

He: I just... Wanna sleep...

She: You have to take a shower first mister. And this will cheer you up!
Come on, just a beer at that bar on the corner.

He: It is awesome to have a bar near our place...

She: I see you're already cheering. Up up, go to the shower!

He: Ok, you win.

[...]

She: See? It's worthy now isn't?
It's our first beer in this not so clean bar...

He: Hahahah I guess they'll start to wash everything when the last client leave.
My guess will be that guy on the counter.

She: Ohh poor him. He's sleeping isn't he?

He: Hey don't do that! You were going to throw a piece of napkin at him?

She: Ahh you boring! I was just making sure he's alive.

He: I'm pretty sure he is...
But actually... I had other plans for tonight...

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He: Honey, I'm totally not rushing you, but we are kinda lat...

She: I know we're late!

He: Yeah...
I'm just gonna... Sit here and have a beer.

She: Don't spill it on your tux!

He: Of course I'm not...
Oh crap.

She: What? I can't hear you from here.

He: Uh nothing hun. Keep doing your... Make up and stuff, I'll be right back.

She: I'm done.
Got the keys? Let's go then, I'll call the cab from the elevator.

He: Yeah, everything's here.
Wait...

She: What? Do you like the dress?

He: Hell yeah... Everything's... Perfect.

She: Thank you.
I feel pretty today.

He: Oh come on you're pretty everyday.

She: Men...

He: What?

She: I don't walk this way everyday.

He: Yeah I know. I said you're beautiful.
With or without all this production.

She: This elevator is taking too long. I would go through the stairs but can't do with those shoes.

He: The elevator it's the same as everyday. See, it's there.

She: Is this earrings fine? I'm not sure about them...

He: Everything's perfect honey I told you.

She: Oh men always say that.

He: Hey what should I say? If I compliment it's common, if I don't you bite me.

She: Shh I'm asking for the cab.

He: And there she goes...

She: Done, it will be here in five minutes. What were you saying?

He: Me? Nothing.
Just looking at those earrings. Pretty ones...

She: You think I didn't noticed you changed your shirt?

He: I...
Damn.

She: Spilled beer on it right?
Knew it.

He: And some olive oil too...

She: What?...

He: Just a snack, I'm hungry you know.

She: Ohh do you see... You didn't want the shirt I picked for you, now the one you wanted is stained.

He: And I'm wearing yours again.

She: And you better be excited cause we are gonna dance tonight.

He: Well it's kinda dangerous for me to dance at weddings.

She: Why? You're getting better.

He: You haven't see me dancing at weddings, but ok. You asked for it...

She: When you start to look like a fool I'll be near shooting everything hahah.

He: Ohh that's how it's gonna be... Ok, I know your make up is going to melt some time, be ready!

She: Hahahah challenge accepted mister!

couple of words [105]

She: Simple things only. Keep it short.

He: Right.
You first.

She: No, you first. I'm the boss!

He: You're the boss...
That's one. It's nice to see you ordering things.

She: Why?

He: No whys.
Keep it short!

She: Alright then...
To knot your tie.

He: Maybe I like you to knot my tie and don't care to learn...

She: Shoosh! Don't wanna know! No explanations.
Perhaps later since I'm curious...

He: You're always curious.

She: Zip it mister.
You again.

He: To walk in the rain with you.

She: That would be mine... Damn!

He: Probably for the same reason...

She: Guessing tricks for later.
And eat more salad, there's plenty for us both.

He: I am eating it but I'm not having all of this. You finish it.

She: Ok then.
Dinners together.

He: What dinners together?

She: My turn, you fool.

He: Oh got it.

She: I see we can't do this having dinner. Too much distractions.

He: You're too much distraction.

She: I am. For your eyes for sure!

He: Pretty and humble!

She: Ohh thank you honey, same to you!.

He: Hahaha you clown.
And  for my ears too, you know, since you kinda like to talk too much.

She: Shh. Let's eat.

He: I bet you can't handle five minutes quiet hahah.

She: If i do, the neighbours gonna think we killed each other, that would be embarassing.

He: Yeah.
We have this tendence to kill each other...

She: But not!

couple of words [105]

She: Simple things only. Keep it short.

He: Right.
You first.

She: No, you first. I'm the boss!

He: You're the boss...
That's one. It's nice to see you ordering things.

She: Why?

He: No whys.
Keep it short!

She: Alright then...
To knot your tie.

He: Maybe I like you to knot my tie and don't care to learn...

She: Shoosh! Don't wanna know! No explanations.
Perhaps later since I'm curious...

He: You're always curious.

She: Zip it mister.
You again.

He: To walk in the rain with you.

She: That would be mine... Damn!

He: Probably for the same reason...

She: Guessing tricks for later.
And eat more salad, there's plenty for us both.

He: I am eating it but I'm not having all of this. You finish it.

She: Ok then.
Dinners together.

He: What dinners together?

She: My turn, you fool.

He: Oh got it.

She: I see we can't do this having dinner. Too much distractions.

He: You're too much distraction.

She: I am. For your eyes for sure!

He: Pretty and humble!

She: Ohh thank you honey, same to you!.

He: Hahaha you clown.
And  for my ears too, you know, since you kinda like to talk too much.

She: Shh. Let's eat.

He: I bet you can't handle five minutes quiet hahah.

She: If i do, the neighbours gonna think we killed each other, that would be embarassing.

He: Yeah.
We have this tendence to kill each other...

She: But not!

couple of words [104]

She: When did you realize?

He: First date I guess. That whole day.

She: Something specific. The first time you thought about it!

He: Specific han... Let me see...
When we were in the cinema and the lights turned off.

She: Too bad it wasn't a romantic movie!

He: Nah I guess it was better this way. Your laughter helped me to be sure of it.

She: Hahahah I was so... Squeaky!

He: Yeah thats what I loved.
That moment with all the darkness. Only the reflections in your face...

She: And then you kissed me.

He: Yeah.
That's when I realized.

She: That's nice.

He: And when did you?

She: Right before you kissed me.

He: Not a minute later?

She: Nope.
That's when I realized you were really interested  in joining my little world.

He: And make you part of mine.

She: Damn right.
See... I told you I could make the new year's eve a lot more fun!

He: Which reminds me I can never doubt of you.

She: You didn't realize this before? Shame on you, mister!

couple of words [103]

She: Which day is today?

He: I don't... Friday?

She: Try again.

He: October something, why?

She: Try better.

He: Hey what's that look?.. What am I missing?

She: Damn.
Our first date!

He: Our first date was... No, it wasn't today. I'm pretty sure, we went to that horrible exposition in the museum...

She: Wrong again mister. And now you tell me it was horrible right? You seemed to enjoy a lot if I remember well!

He: I enjoyed your company and come on, I was very nervous.

She: But that wasn't the first real date. You should know that!

He: Ohh things were so complicated. Ex here, ex there, "let's go out as friends and see what's like".
Give me a break.

She: I bet you don't remember our date.

He: Oh you do? Let me see...
Well of course I don't remember your clothes. I know you were well dressed because you always are... I remember that we had some pizza.

She: It's getting better...

He: And I remember the place was heavily full or the people were just talking too loud cause I couldn't hear you properly.

She: That is specific...

He: And most of all... I remember feeling like we were in a movie... When they play those clips with ballads or romantic songs while the couple laugh and talk about every single thing while they have dinner.

She: You... I'm... How did you...?

He: Hey I may be awful to remember specific dates, but these are men. I kept the good memories in my mind.
In that night I heard in my mind every song we shared with each other in those first weeks while we were talking.

She: You never told me that. Ever.

He: You know... Living with you is easy. We have fun, we like each other. Sometimes the good thoughts I have are just way too silly. I think about those corny moments a lot. It just feels funny to share them with you, because you are already part of them.

She: I want to have dinner some place out. Plus I'll let you tell me every silly thoughts you have, deal?

He: Fine by me, I made a reservation on that pizza place we went that time.

She: Don't wrap me, it's not such a fancy place to require reservations!

He: Damn you remember it well.

couple of words [101]

She: So you think we are ready to take another step.

He: I do. Don't you?

She: Asked you first.

He: You're not gonna run from this...
Of course I do. It's been what, three months or so? We care for each other even more... Or don't we?

She: Everyday more.
But I wanna know why do you think we are ready... Tell me.

He: Actually.. Because everytime I close my eyes I see your face.
That must mean something.

She: This is sweet. Don't get me wrong, but I need you close to me.
I need to know that you're there for me. Not just your words.

He: If I say something I mean it. You should know that.

She: So now it's time to prove it. We live in opposites of the city. I don't want you to sleep on your desk tomorrow.

He: With all do respect, damn it. If I have to be sleepy tomorrow it's fine by me cause I saw you today. That's what's important, got it?

She: Better this way.
So, dinner?

He: Sure. Where?

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She: Mmm you're here.

He: The sleeping beauty is awake!

She: Or am I dreaming?

He: You're not dreaming. Not now.
How do you feel?

She: Ill.

He: Yeah, that's why I'm here for.

She: You said you were working late today.

He: I was, but you know, since I've found out that you were sick I couldn't work properly.
So I asked my boss to bring all the work home and deliver him tomorrow morning.

She: You did this to take care of me? I'll be fine mister.

He: Actually he told me to go home or get focus.
So I said home was better...

She: You didn't have to. I can take care of myself and now you have to finish this sitting on this lame chair.

He: Yeah, you do need a better chair.

She: I won't buy a new one until we...

He: Until we move together? Got you!

She: I... I feel to weak to think, you're taking advantage of my sickness!

He: Oh so now you're sick right?

She: That's unfair...
But since you're here, will you be a darling and bring me some coffee?

He: No.

She: What? How is this taking care of me?

He: No cafein for you today lady. It will make it worst.

She: You're mean as a nurse.

He: Male nurse!
And you better be a good patient.

She: Yes, doctor!
[...]
Now... This isn't contagious or anything like that. Will you lay down with me? Just till' I fell sleep again, I didn't sleep well last nig...

He: Shh, get some rest. I won't sleep but I'll be here ok.
Now you shoosh!

She: Mmm, so serious!
Ok doctor. Just... Get here with me will you?

He: You don't have to ask twice.

She: I did. And I would ask you a hundred times, I'm the sick one, I deserve!

He: Shoosh! I'm here.
Now...

She: Best medicine ever...
And stop with the "shoosh" thing!

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She: Hey, what are you doing? There are a lot of things to unpack yet.

He: I know, but this is important. I must check if the internet is working, turn on the computer, all the cables and stuff...

She: What part of "a lot of things" didn't you get it?

He: The part where I said I must turn this on...

She: My part here is almost done you know? Will be all your stuff to organize and I'm almost going to take a shower.

He: Believe me my dear, it's worth waiting...

She: Worth for whom? I'm not excited about checking my email tonight.
Actually, I better not to.

He: See... While we chat... There you go.
Music!

She: Ohh you didn't.
All of this just to make the sound system work?

He: Not just that, of course!
Just listen...

She: Yeah, I like this one but...

He: Shh! These are all your favorites! I made a playlist for you.

She: You were saving this for... Today? We're moving, the whole apartment is a mess...

He: Yep. Why do you think I spent so much time on my laptop these last days?

She: Mmm I thought you was just, you know, working.
But how nice of you... Let me hear it, I bet you forgot some musics...

He: Tried my best not to!

She: It's... It's perfect. Thank you honey.
But I really need you to unpack your things!

He: Oh come on, don't spoil it.
I know! Let's see if you like... This one!

She: This is blackmail!
Damn it... Now you'll have to dance with me.

He: Between all these boxes... Like I didn't suck without it.

She: You started it.
Come on, give me your hands. That's better...

[...]

She: How many songs have we danced? I lost track of time!

He: Don't even wanna know.

She: I guess now we should just bring the boxes inside and organize everything during the week...

He: It would take some time anyway. Aren't you glad we did it?

She: I'm really such a fool for you sometimes...

He: Hey, this is a song!

She: Yeah, they're all mixed up in my mind right now.
Plus, the sound echoing in our empty apartment is really enjoyable.

He: Ouch, that hurts.
Over a week planning this and checking the speakers... And you prefere the echo.

She: Fool... I prefer you. Us.

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She: You didn't speak much on the phone this morning...

He: Yeah... I was enjoying listening to you.

She: I was drunk of sleepness and under a bunch of blankets.
Oh yeah, also, my voice was something like... I don't know, a zombie?

He: Hey... Zombies doesn't speak!
Well, the old ones did, but they only said "Braains" and stuff.
And by your look I see I'm missing the point.

She: Explain to me how were you enjoying. I was.. Lazy.

He: Exactly.
I woke up like an hour before that, and was still waiting for you to call or message me, and when you did... I could almost feel you with me.

She: Feel me with you how?

He: Your soft lazy voice... I just felt I was with you... Felt the smell of your hair mixed with pillows and blankets.
And your voice as if you were right beside me.

She: ...
I'm glad you're being this sweet when I can grab you and hug you until you're hurt!

He: Now I don't get the point...

She: I'm saying that you can't be like that when you're not in front of me. It's cruel.

He: Yeah.
That's exactly why I just listened and listened to you.
Also, you couldn't see the smile on my face, and the sigh I dropped after you hang up.

She: Was it similiar to this one right now?

He: Yeah... Almost... You... Conceited!

She: You made me like this, mister!

He: Proudly! Like the Doctor Frankenstein.
But you know, more romantic and all.

She: Now shut up and let's sleep warm cause my feet are freezing!

He: That's why I'm here for.

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He: Yeah, actually it does make my morning better.
Or supportable. It's like my brain only focus on two things.

She: Sleeping and sleeping some more?

He: Cute
Nope. Sleeping and sleeping... With you.

She: That's.. Unfair, mister.

He: What is unfair lady?

She: You saying that when I can't look at your face to know if you're smiling or hoping to get lucky...

He: Are you kidding?
I'm always smiling when I talk to you.

She: Cute.
And you're not trying to get lucky then?

He: Well I'm always doing that also.

She: Hahahah smart boy. Way too smart.

He: It's kinda part of the package you know.

She: You're excused.

He: I surely deserve to get lucky. See, I'm having lunch on my desk now.

She: Not because of me. I told you to go to a restaurant and eat decent food.

He: Hey, I can't go asking every food I order if they are decent.
It's not every sandwich that has a nice family!

She: That was... So lame! Hahahah I'll go now, getting back to work.
But you really should work on that jokes to get lucky tonight mister!

He: Nahh... I'm already lucky.

She: See, that's the way...

He: A-ha a-ha, I like it!

She: Ohh you did this on purpose! Almost got me!

He: Yeah... After all, you're the one who got me...

[pensata]

Não quero pensar. Passo algumas boas horas distraído com outra coisa

Até que fecho os olhos. E vejo você.

Falando quase dormindo

Me pedindo pra te ver dormindo

E estar presente quando acordar.

Segundos se passaram. E a sensação é de uma noite inteira

E só o que eu consigo pensar

É na mancha do batom que você não tirou, por preguiça

Que ficou no canto do meu travesseiro

E manchou meu rosto de vermelho

E eu não quero tirar

Mas estou só imaginando. Sonhando acordado

É hora de abrir os olhos

E você não vai estar aqui.

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He: Have you heard that famous quote that says if someone's gonna see other someone, it starts to feel good earlier?

She: Of course I did.

He: Then, it's like that.
Kinda like that.

She: "Kinda" is not very romantic...

He: Yeah, because having butterflies on your stomach it's not all romantic either.

She: Oh, your gastritis...

He: Exactly. I went to bed already in pain, but woke up this morning happier knowing that I was gonna see you.

She: Well I can't be responsable for your stomach pain...

He: It's not all pain either.
That's why the "kinda". It's a struggle, I feel good because I'm gonna see you in the next day, but the anxiety brings me the pain.

She: It's getting hard to follow.

He: I'll walk slower.

She: Hahahah silly! I said about your discourse!

He: Oh...
Confess, you like my naive spontaneity!

She: It makes me laugh, and I've been needing it!
But you were saying...

He: Yeah, I was saying... That it's all romantic and it's not.

She: Now I lost you.

He: Mmm see... It's not because it gives me pain, but it is... Because it's a kind of pain I can manage happily.

She: Mmm. Perhaps you're right.
But it's getting colder, we should find shelter somewhere!

He: You spoiled my romantic conversation.

She: I so did not that I'm still thinking over it.
And probably will still be, once my hair stop getting on my eyes.

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He: Would it be weird if I said that I already feel comfortable with you?
I know, it's only been... what, a couple of weeks?

She: Maybe more.
But I stopped counting the time for those things. It only matters when it's over.

He: Or when it's a marriage.

She: Which is pretty much the same hahahah.

He: Oh...

She: I'm kidding, silly.
Slightly, every rule has it's exception... But then, say it.

He: Yeah, I'm still figuring your sense of humor and trying to find out your tastes without asking you cause that would bore you... But I do feel that way.

She: I apreciate that.
The reason I'm enjoying this and not counting time is because you don't effort to make a good impression. You don't ask things like an obsessive guy desperate to please me.
And I confess, this is new to me. I'm enjoying also.

He: It's like...
Nah, nevermind!

She: Oh come on?! Now you have to say it!

[...]

He: Okay... I guess the woman always wins after all.
It's like... This couple of weeks or whatever have been like when you first hear a album of an artist you just heard about.

She: Mmmm.

He: Still getting placed, attentive to everything... But already enjoying.

She: I see your point.
And for you know, I'm not that witch I seemed at first, right? I'm not that mean.

He: I was never think of you this way!
[...]
Ok, I thought you were a little mean, but that's normal.

She: Oh I'm glad.
Also, about this first impression of this new artist's album, I am already singing the refrain without worrying which kind of song's gonna be next...

He: That... Was a brilliant metaphore.
You have talent you know?

She: Shut up and don't spoil the romantic moment!

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He: Because... I look at you and think "why don't you and I"?
Because when I think about you, I see you smiling. Always.

She: I don't smile twenty-four hours a day.

He: I know that. But I can't help seeing you with a big smile in your face, even if I'm not responsable of it.

She: So we'll have to live on with each other's bad habits.

He: And what I'm trying to say is that I'll buy it.

She: Ok it's easy to say, but we won't have this "fresh start" syntony forever.

He: Listen... I know you have reasons to be affraid of this, it turned wrong for you too the last time. But I can't say it's all a bad thing, cause I met you. So what if we work this?
All I know, and I've never been this sure about something, is that we can get something special here.

She: It's not that simple. You'll have to let go some time of your own, some things change for good. It happened before, why wouldn't happen again?

He: Yeah, it can... But you know, in my scale, your side is stronger...

[...]

She: So... Do you promise we will argue like this sometimes?
Just to remember ourselves we still want the same.

He: So far I've found out that arguing with you is actually amusing.

couple of words [92]

She: You wanted to talk with me?

He: I did... Meant, I do.

She: What is so urgent that we couldn't talk over the phone?
Oh wait, are you breaking up with me?

He: What?
Oh wait, you got that wrong.

She: I'm curious... Tell me before I start smoking.

He: See, it's like this irony of yours. I don't really know when you're being serious or not.

She: In time you'll learn, dear.
But tell me, I'm really not getting any younger.

He: Actually I was thinking if you won't break up with me...

She: Why on earth would you think that?
Here, I know you're still a bit unsecure because of your last ex, or whatever...

He: It's not that.
Maybe a little, but the point is... I don't... Know you well, yet. Sentimentally, I mean.

She: Mmm. Funny that you said that, because we're already intimates...

He: It's not about sharing a bed and a shower sometimes.
Damn, I don't want to sound girly or way too sensitive... But I want to know your feelings better.

She: So you're kinda asking me to be your girlfriend?..

He: Perhaps I am.

She: Ok, but before I answer, please tell me why you think we should do that.

couple of words [92]

She: You wanted to talk with me?

He: I did... Meant, I do.

She: What is so urgent that we couldn't talk over the phone?
Oh wait, are you breaking up with me?

He: What?
Oh wait, you got that wrong.

She: I'm curious... Tell me before I start smoking.

He: See, it's like this irony of yours. I don't really know when you're being serious or not.

She: In time you'll learn, dear.
But tell me, I'm really not getting any younger.

He: Actually I was thinking if you won't break up with me...

She: Why on earth would you think that?
Here, I know you're still a bit unsecure because of your last ex, or whatever...

He: It's not that.
Maybe a little, but the point is... I don't... Know you well, yet. Sentimentally, I mean.

She: Mmm. Funny that you said that, because we're already intimates...

He: It's not about sharing a bed and a shower sometimes.
Damn, I don't want to sound girly or way too sensitive... But I want to know your feelings better.

She: So you're kinda asking me to be your girlfriend?..

He: Perhaps I am.

She: Ok, but before I answer, please tell me why you think we should do that.

couple of words [91]

He: I believe we are here because there is something great to celebrate.
Life is, first of all things, about loving. And sharing, and giving, and receiving... Hey, stop giggling!

She: Pardon me, I'm listening. Everyone is!

He: Then... It's all about love everyone around us and inspire people to do that too. This way we're gonna make a better world.
And the world seems a lot better since I've met you. Every day, week and month I like you more and want other people to feel this way. Everyone deserves it.
See, when I think about what we have, it feels "natural". But how can I explain to others what means natural?
For me, it's something that was meant to be, whatever may be your believes. Two people that should be together. It doesn't happen every corner, but when it does, everyone knows it's right.
And I'm pretty sure that what we've been through so far, before we even met, now it just seem suitable.. and yet so petty... Like we had to get through this because in the end of the rainbow it truly was the gold pot.
And I know it sounds corny for someone, but it really doesn't matter. When you care for someone that is a assumed risk. The most adorable risk I'll ever take!

She: Ohh.. Let me catch my breath.. I must be all red. That's why I should've said my vows first!

He: Hey, don't look at me. Our friends here suggested the raffle.

She: My wedding vows decided on a raffle. That is truly something to remember for the rest of my life!

He: Hahahah I agree. But stop mumbling, there are people shooting it.

She: It's our vows exchange, it may not have much of a religious value but it's import...

He: Shh. Say your vows, you stopped being all red!

She: Don't rush me on our wedding, mister!
That I like. Be quiet so I can talk silly things about us.

He: Actually it's just the vows ceremony yet, but I'll shut up.

She: I think... Our memories, everyone's memories are like flashes of moments, good or bad ones. I surely can think of a lot of them with you. Equally important.
These moments of someone's life may not make much sense when analised separately, but when you fit them like a puzzle it all makes sense. Every sad or happy moment makes perfect sense along with the ones you don't even know how you feel, you just live it.
Living with you is this way. Daily puzzles I'll remember by later and giggle myself with it. Because somehow in the end of the day every single one makes perfect sense.
Perhaps there is a single piece missing. Otherwise life will be perfect. But who wants perfection? The most beautiful thing about it is that paradoxically...

He: That is a mouth-full!..

She: Shh! And contain your tears, I'm almost done!

He: Zip it!

She: Is that paradoxically... Something might be missing, but when we pursue our happiness, we are living something perfect.
After all...

He/She: All we need is love!

Crônicos

Em assentos opostos, dois homens fazem anotações. Um mais jovem, outro também jovem, mas com aparência mais endurecida. Um faz suas anotações em um moderno aparelho faz-tudo, o outro em um pequeno caderno. Quem anota o quê em qual?

É uma noite fria. Todos no vagão usam seus casacos, cachecóis e blusas.
Ou poderia ser um dia quente, com o sol entrando sem se importar.

Ambos misturam as anotações com os olhares pela janela. Aonde vão? O que pensam?
E voltam-se para suas anotações.

"Vendo sozinho os filmes que deveria ver com você
Pensando sozinho coisas que deveria dizer pra você
Imaginando sozinho a vida que deveríamos ter"

Pensamentos interrompidos. O que anota no aparelho para aumentar o volume da música.
Ou seria o que anota no caderno que levantou para dar lugar a alguém mais velho?

"Mas você não existe. Nós não existimos
Por puro medo de tentar
Puro receio de de se arriscar. De viver
Medo não de dar errado. De dar certo"

Terreno perigoso. Escrever sobre medos?

"Talvez porque nesse mundo em que vivemos
Se sentir realizado seja passível de culpa"

O vento frio passa pelas frestas. Ou seria o sol que se escondeu atrás de uma nuvem?
Decerto que os sentimentos concordam em uma coisa: somos oprimidos. Pelo tempo? Pela vida adulta? Ou por nós mesmos?..

Mas você não existe. Não na minha vida
Nós nunca existimos. Foi só um sonho
Recorrente"

Quem escreveu o quê? Trechos misturados ou idéias parecidas?
Pensamento em alguém, talvez. Alguém específico ou que não existe?
Escrever sobre sonhos... Terreno distante.

E o que será que pensam as pessoas que perdem o olhar ao longe?
Se é que estão mesmo perdendo...

Sobre cultura pop [e amadurecimento]

Quem sabe o que procuramos -eu, tu, eles, nós- esteja ali, além do horizonte. Em Emmerald City, no Planeta dos Macacos, na Terra Média, a Ilha de Lost ou em algum lugar muito, muito distante [em uma galáxia igualmente distante]...

Quem sabe o que procuramos esteja além da tela da tv 20 polegadas que mal sintoniza o velho video-game. Aquela velha Telefunken que muito foi útil pra nos transportar para o mundo de Mario [sim, nós conhecemos o Mario]!
Quem sabe a Green Hill Zone seja mesmo o lugar ideal, ainda que para isso tenhamos que libertar animais indefesos de trabalho forçado.

Quem sabe todos venhamos a ser o agente 007 quando crescermos, Bond, James Bond, a serviço de Sua Majestade, com licença para matar, martini batido, não mexido. E claro, as Bondgirls...
Quem sabe todos possamos sair cantando e dançando na chuva pela alegria genuína de estarmos apaixonados, só de estar presente ali, na rua onde você vive...

Quem sabe o mundo ainda será compreensivo e repleto de amor como pedem as músicas dos Beatles, e as paisagens sejam coloridas e repletas de pessoas felizes como no livro em que temos que achar Wally [Waldo?].
Quem sabe os únicos invasores do nosso mundo sejam os alienígenas do Atari... Dos quais podemos tirar um descanso apertando reset e mudando para o simpático e saltador Pitfall.
Quem sabe o mundo seja mesmo uma floresta imensa com céu azul e mundos submarinos [e até extraterrestres] exploráveis. Seja em 8 bits ou em 3D...

Quem sabe a vida seja como uma tarde em Itapoã, ao som do mar Itapoã, como aprendi desde pequeno ouvindo os discos -sim, cd's não existem, o vinil reinará eternamente neste mundo- dos meus pais, tios e primos. Deitado em uma rede, se concentrando excessivamente no ato de não fazer nada.

Quem sabe a nossa juventude não seja mesmo uma banda numa propaganda de refrigerantes, e os mapas do acaso estejam escondidos nas entrelinhas do horizonte. Quem sabe, talvez. [HG vai me perdoar pelas citações. Vai?]

Quem sabe nós mesmos deixamos escapar as pequenas alegrias em cada suspiro, em cada pedra movida do meio do caminho. Um Peter Pan dentro de cada um.

couple of words [90]

He: For some time, a long time, I would never think that the thing I wanted the most would be to have my place, with someone...

She: That's normal. I'd say typical of single men on early adult life...

He: It's not just that.
Of course I wanted to have my 'bachelor pad' -hey, don't giggle- to receive friends and stuff...

She: And you've done that.

He: I kinda did.

She: With more guy friends than girls...

He: That's typical of single men on early adult life.

She: Oh really? I didn't know that.

He: It's like women going out shopping I guess. We do almost the same. But instead shopping we go to the market to buy some beers and meet or just order pizzas and talk about women, generally.

She: Among sports of course.

He: Well that's always a theme.

She: It's so obvious hahah...

He: Both genres are...

She: Yeah. The similiarities of different people.
But you were saying...

He: I was?

She: About the thing you wanted the most...

He: Oh yeah.
That didn't quite changed, only a few details.

She: Which are?..

He: Now I don't want to be alone anymore.

Não sou conduzido, conduzo

O que é pra você, amigo paulistano, a imagem que define a cidade? Certamente pensou em uma meia dúzia delas. A famosa esquina, o marco-zero, a Paulista, as Marginais... Tudo bem específico.

Pra mim se destacam algumas cenas. Talvez filmes da vida real. Pegar o metrô indo ou voltando para a casa dos meus avós, maravilhado com o metrô em elevado na zona leste. Olhos de criança...
Também, e ultimamente a cena que mais resume, as margens dos trilhos de trem na zona leste, ainda próxima ao centro. Trilhos que dividiram a região em duas quase como um muro de Berlim. Transformou as ruas que deviam ser paralelas em insanos emaranhados sem saída e de confuso tráfego, mesmo pra quem é dali.

Ruas essas em que ainda se vê crianças jogando bola na rua. Como se ainda fôssemos 90 milhões em ação, e a Amarelinha a esperança da nação. Isso de fato mudou. Capitalismo selvagem -e inevitável.
Crianças empinando pipa, até desafiadoramente contra os emaranhados de fios que vão tecendo seus quilômetros cidade adentro, subúrbio afora. Será que ainda se faz pipas em casa? Lembro de ainda pequeno ver irmão e primos cortando varetas, papéis, usando aquela cola de tubo branco e azul com cheiro horrível preparando aqueles quadrados que eu insistia em fazer cair.

Estranho é ter memória olfativa em uma cidade aonde o cheiro se confunde com o odor.
Ou memória fotográfica admirando uma pequena flor, nascida numa árvore média, expremida e ameaçada no canteiro central de uma enorme avenida.
Vidro, asfalto, concreto e metal. Placas, buzinas, faróis e sirenes.

Estranho é encontrar sentido nessa falta de sentido.

A intenção da crônica era destacar uma imagem, que até foi destacada, mas perdeu espaço. Capisco? Assim é Sampa. A gente começa falando de uma coisa, dá a volta no mundo -ou no centro- e termina dizendo... Cadê a minha conclusão?

couple of words [89]

She: Good evening!

He: Now it's good.
I've been waiting a while for this kiss, you know?

She: Yeah, you know..The executive had to travel, business stuff!

He: Hahah I don't even want to ask you how much you earn cause that can be disappointing...

She: Ohh don't be sad my dear. We are not together to split, but to increase.

He: Mmm I liked that.
Couldn't agree more.

She: So tell me, how was this sad lonely weekend?

He: Well, what can I say? A weekend without you it's like if someone told me: "Hey, this color you're seeing doesn't exist, you're imagining things". But I keep seeing the green of the grass or whatever other color.

She: It shouldn't be this way... We should be able not to see each other without this suffering...

He: Oh don't get me wrong, I can stand a day or two without you, of course. Not without some sorrow though.
But completely away from you... It's... Weird.

She: When you care for someone, you care about every little detail about it. Right?..

He: As I told you, it's like if something you've always apreciated suddenly stoped existing and you're the only one who remember of it.

She: Spooky.

He: Hahahah that's the word. It's spooky!

She: Now take me out to have a coffee. There's a nice sunset out there.

He: I will, but bring your coat.

She: It's not gonna be cold.

He: But it might rain.. And your hair would get wet but your body wouldn't.

She: What about your coat?

He: Well... It's only fair, you take your coat and I'll take a umbrella.
Plus I would laugh a little about your hair getting wet...

She: I actually missed this sense of humor!

He: Oh I know. Expect me to be way more sarcastic this week!..

couple of words [88]

She: Hey!.. I didn't know you were coming tonight!

He: I wasn't. But listen, I have something important to say...

She: Well since you're here, come on in and...

He: No, wait. I have to tell you now.

She: Is everything ok? Honey you're sweating.

He: Don't worry about anything, I'm ok. But listen...

She: Won't you come in? I have vis...

He: No, I have to speak it now.

She: Geez. Ok, what happened?

He: I was walking home after work today and listened some sirenes and then ambulances.. There was an accident somewhere near... I got scared.

She: Scared? Why?
You know I was here, I told you I was coming home earlier today cause my...

He: I know. I know. Listen...
I got scared of thinking how would it be if I.. You know, lost you. These kind of things.

She: Sweetie.. These thoughts are normal. It's the fear to lose something.

He: It's not just that.
I started thinking if I say enough how much I like you, how much your companionship means to me. Cause I should let it clear everyday.

She: You show it more than enough honey. Don't worry alright? It was just some bad thoughts, that's all...

He: It's not all...

She: What else? Oh, I told you, why won't you come in, my p...

He: Will you marry me?

She: What?!

He: Don't freak out, I know we have a lot of things to think, problems to solve, but... Why not doing it together? Really together? I'm tired of waiting, I want you everyday in my life.

She: Ohh I'm gonna pass out...

He: Hey... Calm down.
I have some chocolate here, you need some sugar...

She: It's not that... This... Is totally unexpected.
I thought we were a different couple! Honestly I haven't think about marriage so far, things are so nice...

He: And they will still be nice. Or nicer. We can do it!
I know I don't have a smallest idea of what is a marriage, but damn, we are a couple. A young couple, ok, but we hold on each other. That's the most important thing...

She: I...

He: Here, I bought this a couple of months ago. I wasn't planning anything. I mean, I was, but for when I felt prepared. I'll pay this for an entire year but it's worthy and...

She: Yes! Of course I will!

He: You will?

Father in law: Son, and you have my blessing!

Mother in law: Our blessings!

He: I... Hello...

She: You fool, I was asking you to come on in, don't you remember I told you my parents were coming dinner with me tonight?
Now you're speechless hahahah...

couple of words [87]

He: Do you know one thing I'm proud of?

She: Let me guess!..

He: Ohh you wouldn't...

She: Fine. Three chances!

He: Or?..

She: Or... The dishes.

He: Easiest bet ever!

She: Dont brag yourself mister!
Let me see... You're proud of... My taste for music!

He: Actually I'm quite a bit, but it's not a hundred percent like mine, so...

She: Ahh ok mister, got it!
Second chance... My taste for movies! I know you do!

He: Hahahah good one, and I am, but it's not what I was thinking... It doesn't have to do with tastes...

She: Damn, this is hard.

He: Hey, do you hear that?

She: What?

He: The dishes. I guess they're calling you!

She: Hahah clown!

He: Last chance... Ohh, I wish I'd use more than two glasses to drink water tonight...

She: Shh, let me think!
Mmm... You're really enjoying this aren't you?..

He: You'll never guess, woman, give up!

She: You're proud about us... About.. Our discussions?

He: Peeeem, wrong!
But it was close!..

She: Now tell me about it and let's see if I was wrong...

He: Well, actually...
Wait, I have to stop smiling to say that hahah.
Now... I'm proud when we're busy at work in the morning and I check my emails and there are over thirty messages since we've started to chat...

She: Ohh...
That's.. I guess I wasn't thinking that specific...

He: So is this a good "Ohh"?..

She: A "Ohh" that I'm not worried at all for doing the dishes!

He: Hi-five!

She: But you'll dry'em!

He: Okay...

[...]

He: And you know... It's not that I don't like your tastes for music, no!
I just think that your tastes are you... All written, you know. Therefore I don't want to have a similar taste...

She: So it reminds you of me?..

He: I don't need anything for that.
I do need not to think about you sometimes...

She: Sweet..
Hey! Spilling water over me is not fair! Don't play with water, mister!

He: I know that one with fire!

couple of words [86]

He: Good morning there!

She: Good morning to you, again!

He: I know, it's the fifth time I say that...

She: Good morning greetings are never enough!

He: Some people's greetings aren't...
Tell me.. How are you there?

She: My cubicle feels cold. How about you?

He: Chilly alright. Hang on.
Hey boss!..

[...]

She: Busted!

He: Hahah he didn't see anything.
Plus I wasn't doing anything wrong. The day is just starting...

She: Hahahah..
Oh wait, did you just texted me?

He: Oh did I? I don't know... Hahah.

[...]

She: You...

He: What? I can't see you now so I don't know what reaction you're having...

She: I'm speechless!
You've just put a huge smile on my face!

He: Hahahah it was just a normal sms...

She: Yep, it's normal for you to make me smile like this, not that often when I'm working.
Now there are people looking at me!

He: Ohh I bet you're blushing! This is priceless!
How I wish I was seeing this hahahah.

She: You fool, don't get me more blushed now.

He: Hahahah ok, my morning share just expired!

[...]

He: And you know, this is a payback.

She: For what dear?

He: When I feel bad here, sleepy or something I keep looking at my old messages. Your messages.
They make me feel better. Not just better, a better person.

She: Cute!
But please don't get me blushed again today! I don't need to use make up anymore because of you!

He: See? I'm also saving your skin. You're welcome.

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He: How about if you could live inside a movie?

She: I don't see how.

He: How come?

She: "To live inside" something. That seems like a prison.

He: That was rethorical.
Think about it. An adventure, something apparently 'impossible', I don't know...
Doesn't it attracts you?

She: Maybe.
But movies are not that different from real life.

He: Well some movies are.

She: It's just a matter of perspective...

He: Oh of course, everything in life is a matter of perspective.

She: If you think about it, generally movies narrates some adventure, something unexpected. With some pain and knowledge to the characters so they become more elucidated persons at the end.

He: That is a big generalization.

She: And that is a big word.

He: Hahah silly. Go on.

She: That's it. Movies are just like life, but condensed. More ornated perhaps but they show us what our lives could've been.

He: That is a little harsh to think.

She: Not that much. If you valuate what you have. And that's why I see them as a fiction.

He: Oh my intelectual girlfriend. Ok, I actually agree with you.
But I also disagree.

She: Explain that, mister.

He: I think you can valuate what you have... What we have. And still want to live an adventure, a romance like the movies.

She: Mmm...

He: Maybe one day they'll make a movie about us.

She: It would have a lot of dialogues right?

He: Hahah..
If you think about it, life is a movie. Not shortened and... Hold on!
Do you feel trapped?

She: Why would I?

He: Because... You said, you'd feel trapped if you lived inside a movie.

She: Hahahah silly. That was just a line. My character was just misleading you!

He: A line.. Nice one, you got me!

She: I've got you for a long time, mister!

[...]

She: Anyway... I don't feel trapped cause this movie is daily and continuous.
And the romances... Are way better when you live'em this way.

[...]

He: Good line, ma'am.

She: Now you deserve a pillow fight for calling me that!

couple of words [84]

She: Don't tell me that thing's gonna be alright.
We have to work it.

He: That's why I said, we are going to work it. It's a phase, every couple has it.

She: It's not a phase if we don't solve it now.

He: Aren't we solving it? We are talking after all.

She: We are discussing.

He: Ok, let's talk then. We've been through this.
You say we don't go out that often anymore. I say it's because of the cold.

She: I say it's not just the cold. We used to go out a lot more a couple of months ago.
Do you know what we are?

He: What, dear?

She: An old couple. Not old people, old couple. The ones that doesn't do anything together anymore.
And we've just started, come on! Three months. We shouldn't be doing this.

He: We shouldn't be arguing.

She: That I agree.
But sometimes we have to do things we don't like.

[...]

She: Isn't better to talk this through now and save us a fight ahead?

He: It is.
You're right about it... But... Sometimes I just don't feel like going out ok?

She: We don't need to make couple's program every week. But sometimes it's nice to see the world.

He: And show everyone the amazing girlfriend I have.

She: This is better not be a joke, mister...

He: It's not. And don't get me wrong, I love going out with you. Anything we do together is fun, and I don't say it with other intentions...

She: But?

He: But I got used to stay with you here or at your place and there's nothing better, you know, just being alone with you.

She: See? We saved a discussion.

He: And by not using other couple's way...

She: I guess we have something different after all...